Feeling Normal

After my pseudo flare up with old lesions this summer I had an epiphany.   If I can handle a fakey flare up (which felt quite real)  then why am I so worried about a real one.  At least right now when I don't need to.   So, for the past several months I have decided to ignore my MS.   I was mad.  If I felt that crummy with a fake flare which lasted quite a while then I must feel fantastic when I don't have a fake flare.  Make sense???  Well, at the time it did.  I didn't post on my MS blogs, sites etc.   Any twinge I had I chalked up to getting older.  Yes, I still took my meds but that's the only time I thought about MS.. And let me tell you for me it's been liberating.  No more walking on eggshells wondering what this and that is.  I have been living my life fully.  If I want to nap all day then so be it.  I do it.  If I excercise 5 days a week and feel crummy on the 6th well so do alot of other people.

Now I'm not endorsing this kind of behavior for everyone but for my mental frame of mind it has done wonders for my life.  All aspects of my life!  Even my husband is a little leery!  Haha  I chase him around like the old days.   I laugh all day long at my teen boys.  If I trip or knock something over it's like "jeez Mom your such a clutz"!

I know it won't last forever but for now It has given me such joy to be "normal"