Ugghhh, those winter time blues. You know what I'm talking about. Cold days, stiff muscles, stuck indoors etc.....
My least favorite season. After a month of wallering (that is really a word here in the south) in my pitiful depressing state I pulled myself up. I started exercising more at home in addition to the classes I take outside home. I also started a journal. Which sounds so old fashioned in this day. But start one I did. Believe it or not my secondary neurologist suggested it. Once I got the hang of writing "my feelings" about anything I want it got easier. Kind of like blogging but with more details and honesty!!
I even (gasp) started back on anti-depressants. I know that's a touchy taboo subject to throw "out there" where anyone could find out that me or anyone else is not perfect.
I've been on them a couple of times since being diagnosed with MS. And I thought that once I got a handle emotionally and physically on my disease I wouldn't need them.
Wrong. On both counts. For me at least. I have come to terms that you can never have a handle on MS. You can cope and move on but that's about it.
Emotionally is another story. There are so many factors that contribute to you emotional well being and having MS. It's not just you that makes your emotions scatter daily. It's MS. I won't bore you with the dry facts and diagrams. I won't waste your time or mine today talking about lesions and myelin sheaths etc. We can do that another time.
Bottom line for me. I take an anti-depressant/anxiety med so I can live my life and not worry so much about the little things. Because worrying around the clock takes a toll. It's exhausting. And I'm not ashamed to admit it.
Overused quote I know but Life Is Too Short
And because I've accepted this and am back on meds I'm able to do this!!